Homesickness- me? Really?

I don't think that is what it is though.  Honestly.  Not me.

So I am coming up on almost three years straight in Florida.  Five years total.

But is it time to go home?

Or am I trying to run away from my struggles? Again.

I'm not happy at work.  I am indecisive (again) for school.

What would make me happy?

School... The second time around...

I am struggling.  I am struggling with money.  I am struggling on keeping myself together.

I try to say I have no regrets in life.  But the longer I am in school (for the second time), the more I regret not doing things correctly the first time.

This time I can not just earn a "B" on a test because I didn't study.  I can not take out student loans and not worry about money.  I can not not be involved.

I have to do everything better, faster, than I would have had the luxury of completing the first time around.  Because that first time is going to follow me around, and I have to prove that I am better than that.